


Testimonials
Just chill out dude, jeez.
If you weren't so sick in the head maybe you could've done something.
Look, I'm just trying to enjoy a nice lunch. Let's talk about literally anything else other than... whatever you had in mind.
You're disgusting.
I can't tell when you're being serious. It feels like everything you say is laden with irony.
You're a horrible person, but I'm sure you already know that.
Why don't you ever say anything anymore?
Oh, it's you.
is it really that surprising you'll die alone?
Can you please delete this website already? It's depressing.
I genuinely don't know what you're trying to accomplish here.
Every time I read your posts, I feel worse.
You really think you're a wise guy, huh?
I wish I never met you.
Jesus dude -- for once in your life, do something.
Why am I surprised you're acting like this?
That's cool, I guess.
Do you even believe in anything?
You really are a bitter one, aren't you?

她的仁慈也變成我的了。 ⏳→ 老
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Juno
Do you remember the day we met? I never confessed to you how sweaty my hands were, which is why I couldn't shake yours at the time. And with the indifferent glare you shot upon me so never could I have known ...
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Which is Broken?
When I first started to grapple with the drop-out existence or the business existence or shut-in existence or cross-country existence and what it could bring, I used to think a lot about what was wrong. I'd think about it so ...
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An Inquiry
Hello friends. I have a simple question: do you wish there was anything different about neocities? I would agree half of its charm is precisely how it isn't anything more than it is. This especially jives with my uncomfortable level of ...
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blogger bloggin
Hello friends. It's been awhile since I wrote aimlessly, and I got some things to ignore, so may as well write here. It's not really anything, it's just nothing honestly. Sometimes I envy those who can be so open about their entire ...
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Insanity's Stairwell
When I wrote [Sanity's Stairwell](/posts/stairway.html) however long ago, so I made one critical error. Throughout the piece there's this assumption of a _baseline sanity_. It's in the very title: of course we're sane here, there, sane somewhere. Ah, how comforting it could ...
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Prole Life
It can be quite hard to estimate how _aware_ you are of the world around you. One of the few beautiful aspects of the net is that, in real time, you can see different _world views_ interacting with one another, or ...
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meaningful
Making a website is probably one of the more meaningful things you could do. And in some ways it's real absurd, isn't it? In a lot of ways. You would best measure meaning by the amount of responsibility you got, the amount ...
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horrible is great actually
There's always a vague inclination to be "a good person" in so far that you could wash your hands when you ever feel accused. Or you could bathe in the fact you at least did right by the entities above, by ...
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cleaning out
In an attempt to freshen the walls so I went through all the trinkets and other things, hitched a proper place, and inevitably found my _physical_ journal from ~8 years ago. If you are one to indulge in the journals of ...
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Virtual Exile
From: dave@cray-ze-manatee.lol \ To: mods@forum.earthwalkers.com \ Subject: Resignation \ Date: Tue, 7 Feb 2017 10:30:00 +0000 --- Well, I am here to report that I never will visit this website or websites like it again. I can't, and I won't anyway. ...
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Alchemist
One trope I find so amusing is best encapsulated by an opening of _Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood_. Beyond the typical bildungsroman dolly shots following the main characters and their evolution, there's a pivotal zoom-out overlooking from their father. The eyeglasses glare out ...
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replicated
An interesting question: if AI will replicate and succeed at prided tasks, like programming and music or whatever else -- if so, what's left? After some deliberation one may suggest it is our emotion/soul/heart that's still left. That, in most ways, the ...
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Music Industry Machinations
I had a random thought the other day flipping through prior top 40 singles. It's almost like there are two gears locked together in the topic obvious corpus -- and we can ignore the more niche pockets but they could, most ...
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want
Hello friends. You're welcome to subject yourselves to more rambling, though ill advised -- seriously ill advised. I mean if you read the thoughts of another enough they may infect you. I'm just accruing notes but maybe you'll enjoy the aimlessness. Anyways, time ...
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abt me
hi! first thing u should know is that I have no name nor age. I do not have any personality tests nor interests. There are no quizzes for me to display here -- not because I avoid them, but because they ...
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has-been
for too long i've hidden behind the veneer of being up-to-date and current -- for too long i've pretended i've understood what you said. i don't understand. i haven't. for years. you tell me we're on the up-and-up. meanwhile i'm smelling ...
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A sit down
"Mark, we need to talk." It was the same as any other Friday -- though luckily for the last year I made a bargain with my manager to sign off two hours earlier. You'd be surprised how much those two hours ...
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blogposting
Hello friends, here's to another blog post. Been seeming a tad dazed, just enough noticeable, which isn't necessarily a bad thing -- there's no envy to be had for histrionics. Maybe there isn't anything -- I don't know, a rule I ...
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Joker
Another one "landed". Tiptoeing and perfectly interjected between the benign suggestions of another appetizer or switching the bar channel. I had the table in uproar for a solid two minutes; I was on fire that night. Or so one would think ...
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Vanguard Vestige
"Where you've been Jess?" My little brother was tugging on my jacket. "You gotta see this fort I made at least." It was a cracked version of Minecraft I copped for him. We had a few mods too -- some mechanical industry, ...
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Goldfish
Gary got buried yesterday. I had _The Only Thing_ on repeat while processing his departure which, at first glance, was certainly expected -- he was pushing triple goldfish digits -- and, on second surmise, most comfortably distant. After all, it was a ...
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Dating
I knew it wasn't the venue. Everyone loves the venue, everyone online raves about the venue -- I mean, it's a 4.9 on Yelp with a single dollar sign. Single. Do you know how rare that is? It's one in ...
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Peddler
Recently had a long conversation with an old college friend about their spiritual journey or whatever you wanna label it, whatever religion you wanna prescribe. Of course we're in the Christian variant here, but it's more buoyant to consider some sort ...
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torch
While driving to the golf range to humor my father we'd had a Sirius radio and it'd be on some classic rock station. And honestly at the time I enjoyed it, whatever it was, Hotel California. And all my siblings would load ...
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Email
It's been five days. And after reading through the three mails prior I confirmed I covered all of the incidentals -- tea notes, park observations and school reflections. I even had a call out from our first correspondence, in an attempt to ...
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what's up
Hello friends, saying hello. I spent a few hours editing a post and a post after that but my intuition tells me that it doesn't necessarily like short stories for the same reason you may like blog posts: most of content ...
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Page Turning
Good evening friends. Hope you've enjoyed the year and you're looking forward to the next. Big plans or small plans, or just adjusting shopping carts before taking yours out. On the main page of this website there's an image sporting two doves. ...
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Belonging ⏳
It's strange to come across some commentary about [communities decomposing](https://bus-stop.net/) though maybe it's a part of an online campaign somewhere. Anyway, the central dilemma: you no longer belong now, right? Whether because you changed, or the fresh blood ruined how things ...
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Dreamer
[...] Voices sure are angelic. Transcoding experience with some melody. Listening to someone speak will always remain fascinating. Out of some aether of will and thought to synthesize. Hopefully to something harmonious, maybe. And it's completely divorced from the frame I think. And ...
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hemorrhaging identity ⏳
What technology allows is consistent reinforcement and security of one's general thoughts about self. You get whole timelines of your life, photos to say, "yes that was me" and all the people now missing. Barring the ever-evolving eventual digital tombstone, so ...
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Sanity's Stairwell ⏳
There have been occurrences where I unravel and am met with dismay or concern and a suggestion to see a psychiatrist. But I understand why, and keep myself at bay. By no means unhinged, just willing to entertain *anything* at all with how ...
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Treadmills ⏳
What better artifact of the Suburban experience than a treadmill my dear friends? When I was a real chunkster so my family had a spare one -- rarely used, dust accrued -- and maybe I'd walk on it bi-weekly at a ...


“One last question to satisfy my idle curiosity. What has been going on in your mind during all the years when we listened to music together, read the Crito, and spoke together—or was it only I who spoke—good Lord, I can’t remember—of goodness and truth and beauty and nobility?”
楽しかった (´・ω・`)