Neverything

I sit here, fanning through random ideas of things to do. Just random things, nothing significant.

And I sit there, I sit there and think it all through, until I think, well, there’s no profit to be had, what a waste of energy. How absurd!

I went through a few ideas like that, anything to do with this website, even though I know there’s no immediate profit, I don’t know.

This is a consistent trend I live with. To “see the folly” in doing without any immediate, obvious returns on investment. It’s why I don’t change this site, and it’s why I delete my forum posts, and it’s why I don’t even watch anything anymore.

If this is all that one can conclude, and if this is all that one can be constrained to, and nevertheless and inevitably it results in sitting here and wasting more hours until death. Instead of sitting here dreaming why not make and regret everything?

To keep thinking about something, and then will oneself do it, even if it’s pointless. Even if there is no profit.

I’ll don it the “neverything” gambit — if nothing is worth doing, then conversely everything is worth the same amount of time to try. So why not try?

Constrain oneself to REALITY. Constrain oneself to immediate CAUSE and EFFECT. Foresight is fashionable, but if foresight is all that one has, then clearly one is stuck in another maze.